It has been a reflective few days for me. Yesterday my sister Julie, who just died in January of this year, would have turned 76. And tomorrow it will be two years since Ken died. Grief is a funny thing. At the least expected moment, suddenly there are reminders and you realize that you just don't feel "right". That aptly describes how I was feeling on Friday. It took me a little while to understand exactly what I had been feeling. Thankfully, I was able to connect the feelings to the facts of the time. I miss both my sister and Ken more at these times. It was also a drab, cloudy and cold day on Friday, which certainly contributed to my depressed emotions. But then, Saturday, I had one of those "you just can't make this stuff up" happen.
It has been 50 years since I graduated high school. Wow, it is really interesting to actually put that on paper. The top picture is my yearbook from 1972. There are eight yearbooks from Elk Grove High School, sitting on a shelf in my bedroom closet. Four of these are Ken's (1968-1971) and four of these are mine (1969-1972). I recently looked at this stack and thought, "Why am I hanging on to these? I should probably throw them out." On Saturday I was especially glad that I did not follow through with that and toss these in the garbage. Let me tell you a little story....Sunday, September 25, 2022
It is a small world!
Sunday, September 18, 2022
Behind the scenes (for a really long time)...
I have been doing this blog since May, 2013. There are, in fact 842 blog posts that have been read an astonishing 74.1 million times, by people in more than 26 countries. I never expected that people would read these posts and I never expected to see this blog still happening in 2022. I have never really shared exactly how and why this blog even came into being. So, I think it is finally time to share a deeper view into the last more than 9 years. It is time to finally admit to the world (and myself,) "I am a writer".
Several years before the beginning of this blog, I had thought about, talked about and considered writing. While not that unusual, it was really out of my "wheelhouse" - not something that I had ever thought I would do. In the 1990's and early 2000's I had spent time creating curriculum for children's programing that had proved to be quite successful. One of my pastors at the time, had encouraged me to try to get some of this material published. However, during that season of my life, I had neither the time or the money to do that. I love to read and have spent much time with a book in my hands. Many a night I didn't get enough sleep because I just couldn't put that book down! Some of my earliest memories are at a public library. I had my own library card at 6 years old! Something that was not common in 1960. While I loved books, I really didn't consider writing one.
Soon after my mom died in 2011, I had a very vivid dream in which my mom appeared. She gave me a golden tray with a pen on it and she said "You must write it". This was the first dream I had about my mom since her death and it was very real. I had been kicking around the idea of starting a blog (which was very popular in 2012) but I just couldn't arrive at a catchy name for my blog. After several months of trying to figure out a name, Gwen told me "Just start the blog under your own name! Who cares what it is called!" So, I obediently set out as a new blogger. In those early years, Google was sharing blogs opening across many platforms and I suddenly had readers from all over the world. It was an encouragement to continue to put my thoughts, my ideas - my life into these blogs. They became a diary of sorts, that I knew would be passed on to my grandchildren and that seemed like enough reason to continue to write them.
The idea that there was more to the writing than a blog, never left me. I started to feel that the story I needed to write was about my grandparents - my mother's parents. Because I really didn't have much information about them or their early life, it seemed to me that it would be a fictional story based on their life. So I sat down at my computer and suddenly the pages were filled with words. When I closed my computer that first day, I had no idea where it would lead me. The next time I opened that document, I was stunned to read the words that I had written. And the outline of this story just flooded my mind. However, it just seemed like some kind of silly thing. Really, who actually writes a book? Certainly not me. I wrote a few pages, here and there. I would open the document, read a few pages, write a couple paragraphs and then close the document. Gwen has never stopped encouraging me to keep on writing. I certainly needed that encouragement.
Last Thursday I was invited to dinner by my distant cousin Dave Anderson and his wife, Carolyn. He and I connected several years ago through a family Facebook group. Due to Covid it has been years since we have talked. At our dinner, Dave was excited to share with me that he had been thinking that possibly I should write a book about our common family - my dad's parents! He had no idea that I was currently writing about my mom's parents.
So, here we are now in 2022. I have the first part of a three part book, mostly written. I have begun writing part two and part three. In the last few weeks, additional book ideas have more or less fallen into my lap. I have begun to get serious about writing, joining some writing groups and registering for conferences. I have been thinking about who might read the book I am writing. I have been considering what should be added and subtracted from the words already on the pages. Not many people know that I have been writing a book. Very few know the story line of these writings. But it seems very real to me, all of a sudden. Now, you all know!
Behind this entire writing project is the sure knowledge that Jesus is in it all. It was a prompting from the Holy Spirit, that even had me considering writing this blog. I knew that I wanted to share the amazing way that Jesus was living and active in and through me. The very idea and story line of this book was a revelation of the Holy Spirit. One thing is certain, for reasons that I can't understand, I am a writer. Over the next few weeks, months and (most likely) years, I will need to keep reminding myself, I am a writer!
Jesus, thank you for your plans and purposes for each of us that you have had since before we were born. Holy Spirit, help us to be open to the ways you choose to use us, even when they seem so out of possibility. Jesus, you are a God of the impossible! Thank you for continuing to provide the nudges that we need to fulfill your plans for us. Give us courage to walk out these plans without fearing what people will think. Thank you for your love and care for each of us. Amen
Sunday, September 11, 2022
Sunny, warm family time, reflections on the past year and looking ahead!
We all got together at an incredible park, half way between the Johnson and Rowley homes. We have great difficulty finding a time that everyone is available to be together. So this day was a special treat to help me celebrate my recent birthday. This park was extra special with something for every age from Jimmy all the way through the adults. We had a short break to have some snacks and the kids all enjoyed a special treat of freeze pops that Doug and Susie provided. It was over 80 degrees so that was a welcome cooling and hydrating snack! The kids climbed, ran, played tag, and all of them (except Jimmy) went down a really cool long metal slide placed into the side of a big hill. These times together, are especially good when the kids leave tired and ready for the ride home.
These last two years have really gone by quickly. At times it feels like a very long time since Ken died. But then there are those days that it seems like he was just here. One of the things that happened in the last weeks was an unexpected needed repair to my home. The ceiling drywall in Ken's camera room cracked in several places and began to fall. It was open to the attic in several places. Thanks to Doug's quick actions, everything was moved out of the room. I was able to get a local handyman to come within a few hours. Apparently, when my house was built in 1977, they used nails instead of screws to hang the drywall. And after years, it just dries out and the nails give way and the longer span of drywall begins to fail. This handyman was able to support the ceiling with temporary bracing and came back two days later to make the permanent repairs. I am incredibly thankful that we have mostly cleared out and stored all of Ken's camera equipment so nothing was damaged. The two years seemed more real after these repairs were made.
Last week I shared some Instagram posts that I wrote as a special writing project. I am making an effort to write every day in this next year. I have a large project that I have been working on for several years and I would like to complete it by this time next year. I don't want to stop blogging, so I will be (hopefully) posting a bit more regularly that I have been. Blogging has seemed overwhelming in the last few months. All of a sudden, it doesn't seem quite as daunting to me! So get ready for more words from me!
Today in church, we sang Revelation Song It was such a great worshipful experience, one that I much needed. I will most likely have this song on repeat over the next few weeks. Being in this place of worship is a great place to begin a new year for me and a good place to end this blog. Join me in worship by clicking on the song.
Jesus, we are filled with wonder at your name. You are the breath and the living water that sustains us. Thank you for family times and wonderful times of worship. Holy Spirit, help us to stay in this place of worship as we go into a new week. Amen
Tuesday, August 9, 2022
Going from zero to sixty in just a short time!
I've certainly had one of those seasons where I was "less busy" than at other times of my life. Covid certainly had a part in this. But that wasn't ALL of the reason that I seemed to be treading water - just staying exactly where I had been. Some of it related to the season since Ken's death. Again, it was expected that there would be time to adjust. Then, as I mentioned in my last blog, I did a 31day prayer focus journal. I am here to tell you that when you pray, things happen. When you expand your prayers to include the world, you are thrust into the world. When you pray for people near to you, people you have lost contact with, or people you see every day, prayers are answered.
I visited Uganda in 2004 at the same time as I was in Kenya. Since then, there was always a place in my heart for the people of Uganda. I included Uganda in my prayers for the nations of the world, during this 31 day prayer focus. I should not be surprised that right in the middle of those 31 days, I was approached to be on the board of a Ministry called Sunbeams Uganda. This followed closely with the answered prayers that reconnected me to my friend in Kenya. It was clear that Jesus is doing something here! So over the last few weeks, there has been much learning on my part. I have been captivated by getting to know and understand the heart and the vision of this ministry to bring real change to a small village in Uganda. I have spent hours networking with various organizations and also meeting some wonderful new friends that also share a connection to Uganda. Sunbeams Uganda has already brought clean water to the village by digging a well. The next focus is to help the village build a primary school so that their young children don't have to walk 4.5 Kilometers each way to the closest school. To get a look at some of the faces of the children in this small village, click on this link SunbeamsUganda.org. It is a bit of a daunting task to consider the amount of dollars necessary to make these big changes for a small village. But Jesus said to "Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." (Luke 13:16) These pictures are from my visit to Uganda in 2004.
I noticed these two boys while I was speaking to the children. They couldn't understand why I would want to take their picture! This photo always comes to mind, anytime I am thinking about Uganda. It was if Jesus was saying to me that he was connecting Chicago, USA with the children of Uganda. And now, years later, I have been presented with another opportunity to bring the love of Jesus, as well as practical help to the children of Uganda. So, for now, I am just holding on tight as my not so long ago somewhat dull life, has now transformed into a rapidly developing, fast moving, calendar filling adventure.
Sunday, July 17, 2022
This week went "swimmingly"...
During my regular time with Grace and Jimmy, I set up their small "splash pad/pool" in the backyard. This is the perfect size for Jimmy since you can walk right into it (a wading pool has to be "stepped" into and most times little ones fall or step on the sides and let the water out).
As you can see, Grace brought over her small slide and it made a perfect splashdown in the small collection of water in the middle of this splash pad. Needless to say, it provided lots of cooling fun for Grace and even kept Jimmy mostly occupied for over an hour. I put my feet in the water spray and enjoyed just sitting in a chair, watching them splash around.
Another way this week went so well, was an unexpected email I received. During the month of July, I am doing a 31 day intensive focused prayer program. Part of the program includes spending time each day praying for countries around the world. I began the program praying for any county that I had a personal connection to. As I have blogged in the past, I met and befriended a very special Kenyan woman named Lucy in 2004 when I visited Kenya on a Mission Trip. I lost touch with her somewhere around 2013 when her ministry really expanded. She is a radio host, founder and leader of a large Ministry, has an orphanage that she founded and oversees. I have continued to follow her (from the internet) by watching some of the weekly Facebook events that she posts. Most of the time, they are not in English so I don't understand much of what is said. But for me, it is so good to see just how far the Lord has taken her and her family. After just a week of praying for Lucy, I got an exciting email. Lucy was trying to connect with me and had lost my contact phone number. We have exchanged emails over the last week and I am certain I will be speaking with her soon. Isn't prayer amazing? Jesus can really do seemingly impossible things for us, if we just ask. So for me, this 31 day prayer program has taken on a whole new feeling. I am much more connected to my prayers, to Jesus and my faith has grown. I am believing to see many miracles from this 31 days! I am sure you will hear more about it in the weeks to come.
Spending this July swimming, being with the grandkids, helping out my kids, being outside in the sunshine, and concentrating on prayer, has made this a truly wonderful summer. I have been working on my 2019 scrapbooking. As of now, I have only printed pictures up to Easter. It has been sort of bittersweet to actually "see" from the photos, how Ken's illness was progressing. Hindsight tells me I should have been more aware, but I also know that we were just praying for his health to settle down. I am just so thankful for all of the photos I have as well as all of the places and people we visited. My encouragement to everyone is to stop the busyness and see those friends. Go to those places on your bucket lists. Plan those trips, in spite of the gas prices. Take the time and GO SWIMMING!
Jesus, thank you for the sunshine and the warm weather. Holy Spirit, remind us that people are more important than things. Keep our focus on you, Jesus. Remind us to pray when we lose sight of your plan. Give us all the ability to have fun. Remind us to live each moment knowing your provision for us, and your plan for our life. Thank you Jesus for summer days filled with laughter. Amen
Saturday, July 9, 2022
Fourth of July marching by.....share your story!
We had quite the set up perfect for watching the action. The "grands" in the back row! We all appreciated the "Freeze Pops" that were passed out - even Jimmy! It was hot but there was a great breeze. My favorite part of the entire day was Grace proclaiming "This is the BEST day ever!"
2018
Monday, June 20, 2022
A whirlwind week with the kids - being a missionary to my own family!
I spent last week with Ellie, Zeke and Anna while Gwen, Tim and Lia were on their yearly mission trip. It was a super fun, busy, and yet very relaxing week for me. While I am actually spending the week as a fill in for mom and dad, I always feel as if it is my own mission trip. I have a daily reminder to pray for the students and adults who are with Gwen and Tim and I love knowing exactly what they are doing each day. The kids take the prayer time we have each day very seriously and some very specific prayers were shared. I especially know that these times with my grandchildren are precious. So many memories are made. The time actually flies by and I can't believe when we come to the end of the 8 days.










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