I was not prepared for the rush of emotions as I sorted through these pictures. If you have not been following my blog since 2014 you may not know that our sweet little Lucas died just 10 days after his birth. And although I am just the grandma, I feel this loss every single day. Each time a thought of Lucas comes to my mind, I try to imagine just how hard this must be for Doug and Susie. I want to honor Lucas in this scrapbook and I want to remember just how happy and delighted we were at his arrival. But knowing exactly what was ahead for our family, this is a difficult thing to accomplish.
October is actually pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. It is only when someone you know, someone in your family or even you yourself experience this tragedy that you become aware of the widespread nature of this. So many people have been touched by this, yet it is so seldom spoken about. Every single member of our family has felt the loss of Lucas - each of us in our own way.
Lia, Ellie, Zeke and Anna miss their cousin and mention him often. Lucas is and will always be a part of our family. Each of us carry him with us into the future. And now our family is anxiously anticipating the birth of a new baby for Doug and Susie - due in February of 2017. This new life will never change our loving and remembering and missing Lucas. But today we celebrate this expected baby.
Yes, I have decided that it is much better to NOT know what might be ahead. Especially when trying to remember and capture a happy event that is followed by a tragedy. In spite of this difficulty, I will press on and finish these scrapbook pages. But it is also a reminder to me of the importance of capturing in photos and journaling, events of every day. There is always something to be celebrated in each day. This is another plea to just remember to be present in the PRESENT.
This is the day the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!
None of us knows what is ahead for us. Things happen each day that change the future for some of us. Right now there is a very dangerous hurricane in the Atlantic basin that is headed for Jamaica, Haiti and Cuba. And then it may take aim at the east coast of Florida and the rest of the US. Some people will face illness, accidents or even sudden death. Yet we know that our hope and our peace is found in Jesus. This is the day that the Lord has made.....we need to rejoice and be glad. We also need to remember that nothing is gained by worrying about the future. Jesus reminded us of this in Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Won't you join me today and find something to rejoice about and be glad about? Even if you are also joining me in this month of October remembering a precious little baby that was gone far to soon. Take a photo today of something that made you smile. Spend a minute or two or five or twenty writing down your thoughts. Celebrate whatever October 2, 2016 had for you. Be present today with the presence of Jesus. Make a memory today worthy of a scrapbook. Even if it doesn't actually get into the pages until sometime in the future. You will be so glad that you did.
Jesus, thank you for the powerful reminder that you want us to rejoice and be glad every day - even when that day might hold troubles. Holy Spirit, thank you for the comfort and peace that only you can give to all of the families that know the pain of the loss of a child. Help us all to hold each other close during times of trouble. Jesus, protect those in the path of Hurricane Matthew. Amen